I realized that I wasn’t on a journey of discovery or realization. I wasn't searching for anyone else to love or accept me. I was searching for self acceptance. I realized that my acknowledgement and acceptance of my sexual identity does serve a purpose. Even if it wasn't something immediately visible because of my marriage.
What does it mean to be pansexual? Pansexual, to me, means that I love anyone unconditionally by personality alone. Some might say "hearts not parts" which I feel is a true statement. Then again, not many people understand what it means to be pansexual.